Sunday, December 28, 2008

Just don’t see it

I don’t see my favorite football team winning the super bowl. I don’t see my favorite Nascar driver winning the championship. I don’t see our economy getting better anytime soon. Am I a negative person? How important are these things to me? Not very.

I’m not sitting on the porch looking at the sunset. I wish I was. My boys were here last weekend and received many blisters and sunburns doing a lot of shovel work and fencing. To travel for 7 hours on a 3 day weekend and work so hard just for us. Wow. What great kids.

I am sitting in my big chair in front of the t.v. with a little boy on each side. They are looking for security; they are looking for time with me. They are looking for love. Luckily, I have plenty for them. But I don’t see a good future for them. That bothers me terribly. I don’t see Mom getting them back. I don’t see Dad getting them back. Honestly, I don’t think the boys care. They told me today with a look of hurt on their faces that mommy took away their beds. They slept on the floor. Right now, these are very happy boys. I hope they have a great childhood and turn out to be as wonderful as my kids are. I don’t want to say, I don’t see it. Reality always comes rushing through my head. If these great little kids go up for adoption, will they stay together? It seems, I worry about these kids as I did my own. This is a tough job. Will Momma Cowgirl and I ever give up on these kids? You can bet your life, I don’t see it.

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My hubby wrote this a little while back after we had our kids out doing the work on the corral/stalls. The little boys he refers to are our foster kids.

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12 comments:

  1. Oh my dear friend! Why can't the system really see that just because you didn't give birth to the children you care for, that they are not your own!? I hope and pray the boys are able to stay with you for as long as you need them to stay. May God bless them and keep them together if he has other plans for them.((Hugs) to you and your hubby. I can't even imagine the heartbreak you must go through. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  2. Dang that's hard. It must be so emotionally hard to let them go. Mommy taking away their beds? That just breaks my heart. What is wrong with people?
    I hope you keep them forever.

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  3. PS - bout time you came back!! We missed you!

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  4. Children need love and that is what you give them. It is tough. Not to mention not right.

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  5. thank you all for your thoughts and prays. We certainly need it.

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  6. Glad to see your back!

    Man how hard that is. A mom taking away there beds, what the heck? I can't believe some people. I'm a firm believer not every woman needs to be a mother. Great job to you and hubby for doing what you do and giving this children the TLC and security that they need. ((HUGS))

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  7. Good to see you back and here's hoping for 2009 to bring those little boy some security. God bless you for everything you do for them.

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  8. Welcome Back! I hope you had a wonderful Christmas too!
    We considered fostering children some years ago, but the system would have broken our hearts besides...watching the children suffer more. In WA, they believe the children belong with their blood families first...and we've seen too many returned right back to the abusive homes they came from!
    I so commend you!

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  9. Very touching post. My heart goes out to these kids that have been left behind by their parents. How wonderful that you have them and can show them the love and security that they so desperatly want and need!

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  10. I have been praying for you. I hope all is well at your home. I have a pesent for you over at my blog. Come check it out.

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  11. Hey Momma Cowgirl, I hope all is ok. Update soon and let us know how things are....

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  12. Thank you all for stopping by.. Jen, I will get to your blog soon and grab that present, I am so sorry that I have not been there sooner.

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